I think God just died of old age. And, when I realized that he wasn't any more, it didn't shock me. It seemed natural and right!
I used to lie between cool, clean sheets at night after I'd had a bath, after I had washed my hair and scrubbed my knuckles and finger-nails and teeth. Then I could lie quite still in the dark with my face to the window with the trees in it, and talk to God.
I wondered a little why God was such a useless thing. It seemed a waste of time to have him. After that he became less and less, until he was... nothingness.
It puzzled me that other people hadn't found out, too. God was gone. We were younger. We had reached past him. Why couldn't they see it? It still puzzles me.
I just knew that God wasn't there. He was a man on a throne in Heaven, so he was easy to forget.
But I was sure of one thing. If God were a father, with children, that cleanliness I had been feeling wasn't God.
I have learned that to have a good friend is the purest of all God's gifts, for it is a love that has no exchange of payment.
I couldn't get that same feeling during the day, with my hands in dirty dish water and the hard sun showing up the dirtiness on the roof tops. And after a time, even at night, the feeling of God didn't last.
That satisfied me until I began to figure that if God loved all his children equally, why did he bother about my red hat and let other people lose their fathers and mothers for always?
I believe with all my heart that the Bible is the infallible word of God.
I believe that the people of Israel are the chosen people of God.
God himself preserved the Bible, and brought it down through the ages.
God created the family to provide the maximum love and support and morality and example that one can imagine.
God continues to lift the curtain and allow the enemies of America to give us probably what we deserve.
AIDS is not just God's punishment for homosexuals; it is God's punishment for the society that tolerates homosexuals.