Discrimination against Jews can be read in Thomas Aquinas, and insults against Jews in Martin Luther.
Christianity had two faces which bewildered me - two pictures which didn't fit.
Because of my Marxism, I was not into myths or miracles, whether it was the virgin birth, the physical resurrection or casting out demons from an epileptic.
At religious instruction classes, I encountered The Pilgrims Progress by John Bunyan, and the sincerity of the traveller in that book was overwhelming.
An aged rabbi, crazed with liberalism, once said to me, We Jews are just ordinary human beings. Only a bit more so!
The Christian use of religion as a personal love affair both shocked me, and attracted me.
For a Christian, Jesus is the unique and only way that God has fully revealed himself. For a Jew this cannot be.
Someone gave me a New Testament. I had never before read it systematically. Some parts made sense, some parts shocked me.
What would I have done if I'd been put to the test? Would I have risked my own life for people I hardly knew? Probably, I would have looked the other way at best or become another apologist for evil at worst.
To my surprise, my 70s are nicer than my 60s and my 60s than my 50s, and I wouldn't wish my teens and 20s on my enemies.
To change, to convert? Why bother?
This Christian poison hasn't stopped yet.
The secular world is more spiritual than it thinks, just as the ecclesiastical world is more materialist than it cares to acknowledge.
The real evidence is not practically speaking in scholarship but in how Jesus and the Christianity based on him manifest themselves in the lives of practising Christians. Their lives are the proofs of their beliefs.
Some of the parables of the Kingdom made wonderful sense, but the exclusivity in the New Testament put me off.