I don't hide my feelings, but when it comes to illness, I guess I don't panic. My father was the same way. I'm the provider for the family and the caretaker. If I panic, who is anybody going to run to?

I care what people think, but that doesn't change what I say. I am who I am.

Before I pitch any game, from spring training to Game 7 of the World Series, I'm scared to death.