I am no longer sure that when I go out there and do my job it'll even see the light of air, if the experience of my network colleagues is anything to go by.
I have always thought it morally unacceptable to kill stories, not to run stories, that people have risked their lives to get.
I'm not an American but I have always had the outsiders' respect for the American people and the American way.
I was really just the tea boy to begin with, or the equivalent thereof, but I quickly announced, innocently but very ambitiously, that I wanted to be, I was going to be, a foreign correspondent.
I was planning, I told everybody, to take him on the road with me. At the very least I fully expected to keep up my hectic pace, and my passion as a war correspondent.
I leave CNN with the utmost respect, love and admiration for the company and everyone who works here. This has been my family and shared endeavor for the past 27 years, and I am forever grateful and proud of all that we have accomplished.
I have spent the past ten years in just about every war zone there was.
I have made my living bearing witness to some of the most horrific events of the end of our century, at the end of the 20th century.
Here in the United States, our profession is much maligned, people simply don't trust or like journalists anymore and that's sad.
But to be self-obsessed is simply not o.k. for the most important country in the world, the United States, which affects every other country in the world.
But 17 years ago, I arrived at CNN with a suitcase, with my bicycle, and with about 100 dollars.
Because if we the storytellers don't do this, then the bad people will win.
And I really believe good journalism is good business.
If we have no respect for our viewers, then how can we have any respect for ourselves and what we do?
And I believe that good journalism, good television, can make our world a better place.